still telling people....

i'm still informing people of mom's death, people i haven't seen in a long time - i've gone back to my previous neurologist after a year at IU's neurology lab and the first thing he asked when he walked in the door was "where's your mom?" yeah, i guess we really were quite a pair. i had a cry after that, and it was over.

it happened again yesterday, when i went for some blood tests - teresa at the lab has been there forever...i haven't done blood tests for some time, so when i got there, she asked where mom was. "she passed away in november," i told her - i was able to talk about it without breaking down, which i felt somewhat good about.

i know mom wouldn't want me crying at every mention of her, but sometimes it just gets so damned overwhelming.